Food always comes first

I am sat here in this midden of a flat, surrounded by overflowing ash trays, empty diet coke cans, unwashed plates, dirty clothes. I should be cleaning up.

At least thirty unopened letters litter the hall floor. I should be paying my bills.

My dad goes into hospital today. I should be thinking of him.

My hair is greasy and my nails are filthy. I should be having a shower.

My curtains are closed, blocking out the sun. I should be going out for a walk.

My houseplants are dying. I should water them.

But all I can think of is that Ben and Jerries icecream is on sale at £2 at my local supermarket, and I must get there before it closes, so I can binge today.  I did the same yesterday. I will do the same tomorrow, knowing that a binge will help me sleep away the rest of the day, so then I can ignore all the things I should be doing.


5 Responses to “Food always comes first”

  1. Alison Says:

    I know which supermarket you mean, I stocked up as well… I can’t think of anything sensible to say right now my brain is not functioning as it should. Take care Alison x

  2. Lola Snow Says:

    sorry to hear that you’re feeling crap. theres not much i can say either, other that let yourself enjoy the icecream. if you are going to binge, then at least don’t beat yourself up about it
    Lola x

  3. theveryhungrycaterpillarisbulimic Says:

    i relate to you so so much its crazy. i love this post. maybe i shouldnt as its not a situation to aspire to, but its one which i recognise with sad familiarity, and one which takes a very, very brave person to share. so thankyou for sharing.

    the very hungry caterpillar

  4. Lola Snow Says:

    Hi Bip

    You’ve gone quiet. Are you ok(ish)

    Lola x

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